10 Week Worries

So here I am it’s 5:20am on a Sunday morning and whilst I’m supposed to be having a lie in as my husband is entertaining the toddler downstairs, I’m writing a blog post.

Today marks 3 years since I went in to labour with my first born, at 5am (which is strangely enough the time he woke this morning) on the 19th November 2014 I felt my first contraction. It also marks 10 weeks until I’m due to give birth to my second baby. How do I feel about this?

I’ve tried to remain positive this whole pregnancy but small fears are starting to creep in. Let me give you a bit of background info.

When I had my first baby three years ago I was a first time mum not knowing what to expert or how painful labour would be. I had no idea that when I felt that first contraction and got myself all excited triple checking the hospital bag that it would be another three days until I met my bundle of joy. I was in labour for 45.5 hours…sigh.

I had a good labour albeit long, I was happy and off my face on gas and air, and I was actually having a laugh with my husband and my midwife. When I look back now are there things I would change for this labour, yes there are, but I’ll discuss that in another post.

When it came to the birth it was long, I pushed for two and a bit hours and no baby. I had a senior midwife come in to perform an episiotomy (I didn’t need it in the end) and things like heart rate and stress kept getting mentioned, I panicked. I pushed with all my might but I think unfortunately too much might as he came shooting out of me all in one.

He never crowned, I never had that moment of panting whilst the ring of fire happened, he was just born like a rocket. Things are very hazy from this point but doctors came in and anaesthetists came in, I was signing forms and there was talk of tearing and stitches. And off I went.

I held my newborn for 10 minutes and then I was gone for 2 hours. I never got to feed him first, I didn’t get to dress him, didn’t see him getting his newborn checks or his vitamin k injection, I didn’t get that amazing bonding time that is advertised in every pregnancy book across the country.

By the time I came out of theatre I was tired, not Just I’ve been up for 3 days tired but bone tired. My husband and midwife brought my son round to recovery and as I tried to keep my eyes open for some lovely first photos I couldn’t, my body took over and I began to drift. I was taken up to a ward, hubby had to go home and I slept for another 2ish hours.

I lived in a newborn bubble after that, I didn’t worry about what had happened as I had a beautiful family. It’s only now that I’m about to do this all again that the fears are starting to creep in.

My midwife and consultant are great. We’ve discussed what went wrong last time and what we’re going to do differently this time. I’ve been offered a c-section but declined it, I really want to give it a go again and see if I get that perfect time after labour.

But I’ve started to doubt myself, I had a traumatic birth last time there’s no denying that. I had a 4th degree tear and my entire downstairs region was held together with stitches, and there are a number of things that could go wrong this time. What if it all goes wrong again this time?

Every part of me is hoping not, I’m hoping that I can do this, that I can breathe this baby out so as to avoid the risk of tearing again. I’m hoping that if I tear again, it’s a smaller tear that can get stitched in the room so I can still hold my baby and have that precious skin to skin. I’m hoping that I have a shorter labour, and that I don’t have to stop in 3 days after to try and get my iron levels up.

There’s a lot of hope there, and I guess that’s why I’m trying to remain as positive and upbeat about this labour as I can. Who knows what’s going to happen?

I’d love to hear your stories if you’ve been through something similar or are about to try birthing after a severe tear so pop me a line below!

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Slow Cooker Corned Beef Hash

Whenever I look for recipes for Corned Beef Hash they’re always made with Baked Beans and a fried egg on top. Now it doesn’t help that the hubby can’t eat beans but it’s not the version that my mum used to make when we were growing up.

I don’t have her recipe so I don’t know exactly how she makes it but this is my version and it was lovely!



Ingredients:

  • 1 Tin Corned Beef (Diced)
  • 3 Meduim Potatoes (Peeled & Sliced)
  • 3 Medium Carrots (Peeled & Sliced)
  • 200g Frozen Peas
  • 1 Onion (Peeled & Sliced)
  • 1 Tin Oxtail Soup
  • 500ml Beef Stock
  • Salt & Pepper

Cooking Time:

4 hours on High, 8 hours on Low

Serves 4

Method:


Add half of the carrots, onion & peas to the slow cooker.

Dice the Corned Beef and scatter half of it over the vegetable mix.


Top with half the amount of sliced potatoes. Make sure all the below ingredients are covered. Repeat steps 1-3 with the rest of the vegetables & Corned Beef.


Make up 500ml of Beef stock according to the instructions on the box. Add the tin of oxtail soup and stir.


Pour over stock mixture and season with salt and pepper. Cook for 4 hours on low or 8 hours on high. 


Enjoy!

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24 weeks pregnant


I actually can’t believe we’re at this point already. People always say that your second pregnancy goes faster because you’ve got your little one to keep you occupied and you aren’t just sat for days wondering about what parenting life is like.

I’m 24 weeks pregnant! Well technically I’m 24+4 when I’m writitng this but all the same. I thought I’d give you a little run down on what’s been happening these past few weeks.


Baby is doing well, I’m getting consistent kicks now and really strong ones too. Pip always comes to life around lunchtime and evening time when I’m relaxing in bed, this is usually when you can see my stomach move really well. 

I’m starting to have a lot of Braxton Hicks lately, they’re not painful but more uncomfortable and take me by suprise. I don’t remember having them with Ethan at all so it’s totally new to me. When I get them my stomach goes to a point and goes rock hard (which I’m not used to as I do still have a mum tum from my first born).

I’ve had my flu vaccine and I’m booked in for my whooping cough one next week. I haven’t seen the midwife again yet though, I’m not due to see her at 28 weeks so only a few more to go until then. 


I have been in at the doctors for a bad vein in my leg though, I’ve got thrombophlebitis! I’ve had varicose veins since having Ethan and one of them started to get rather inflamed and painful so I popped along to have it checked out. The doctor has prescribed me some cream and I’m to go back to see the nurse for a stocking fitting. Apparently I don’t have to wear it all the time just on my rest days so I’m guessing that means when I’m at home in my pjs.

I got my MatB1 form from my health centre too and handed that in at work, I’ve got exactly 9 weeks left as I write this and I’ll be doing my last shift for 9 months. I’ve decided to go off at 34 weeks (well 33+4 will be my last actual shift but maternity starts at 34 weeks) as I know that will be the right time for me. I went at 34 weeks with Ethan (mind you I had anaemia that time) and I’m glad I did. Working in retail is hard especially in the lead up to Christmas, I’ll be leaving for maternity 1 week before Christmas which I’m really happy about. 


At least that way I’ll be at home to enjoy my last Christmas as a family of 3 (we’re hosting Christmas dinner this year so it won’t be a relaxing one). And I’ll be at home to take my little man to his first few weeks of nursery, that’s if his nursery gets back to me and lets me know he has a place! 

Anyway I think that’s all to update you on for now. I’m sure at my next update (28 weeks) I’ll have plenty more to fill you in on.

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It’s my anniversary!


Back on the 10th October 2016 I sat on my spare bed with my phone rested on a box and recorded my very first video on YouTube. I was so nervous, in fact it took me 5 or 6 attempts to film it, but I got there in the end. I uploaded it and off I went.

I was too nervous to film properly in front of the camera so I filmed all my hauls facing away from me for a while until I finally built up the courage to speak to the camera. 

I’m still an amateur compared to other Youtubers but I’m getting there with daily Vlogs, something I definitely need to improve on and film more of. I think when I get on maternity leave I’ll probably be able to film some more of those as work days at the moment can be a bit hectic.

I’ve got nearly 500 subscribers which to many might not seem like a lot but to me it means the world. I’ve made some lovely friends who I now keep in touch with regularly and I love to have a chat with everyone who comments.

I’m looking forward to seeing where the next year takes us, I’d love to sit here in a Years time and tell you all that I’ve got nearly 1,000 subscribers! Let’s see!

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Newborn Winter Wishlist 

This will be our second baby born in the winter season, our first was in November and bump is due in January. There’s nothing I love more than little babies all snuggled up in cardigans and blankets on winter walks. I thought I would show you some of my favourite newborn bits and bobs I’ve spotted whilst doing some online browsing! They’re all unisex as we’re team yellow but I love babies in white & cream they look so tiny and adorable. 

Matalan


This adorable Winnie the Pooh cardigan I actually saw in our local store. I love the face and ear detail on the hood and you can find it here.


Sleeping bags were essential with our firstborn. For the first few weeks we just used cellular blankets but when he found his feet and he knew he could easily kick off the blankets we reached out to sleeping bags. You can find this adorable panda one here.

Mothercare


These adorable London sleep suits are just up my street. My husband and I have a love for all things London and our firstborn was often seen in something with a London Bus or Soldier on. You can find this three pack here.


Sleepsuits and pjs are essential for the first month or two. Newborns want to be comfy and these pjs are ideal (I mean who wouldn’t want to be in pjs all day). You can find them here.

M&S


I love M&S baby, the feel of the fabrics are such good quality and they last a long time. We’ve bought a few bits from M&S this time especially from the sale section. I love this three pack of sleepsuits, you can find them here.


Blankets are essential in winter and I could go mad in the blanket section of many shops especially M&S. I love this cable knit grey blanket you can find it here.

H&M


Winter involves lots of layers and snuggles. I’m hit and miss with snow suits, whilst I love how cute babies look in them the practicality and safety of them are a little hit and miss. So I love to improvise with sets. I love this hedgehog print from H&M you can find it here


Another adorable unisex set from H&M. I love stripes and anything with ears on a hood so this really spoke to me. You can find it here.

So that’s a few bits I’ve spotted whilst doing some online browsing. There’s so many adorable Christmas outfits which I won’t get to buy this year as we’re having a January baby, my first was only 4 weeks old at Christmas so he looked tiny and sweet in his little Christmas outfits. I’m sure I’ll be back with an updated version before baby is here.

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Half way there 


Wow, how can I be halfway through my pregnancy already? 21 weeks as I write this. Only 19 more weeks (or possibly less) until I meet my little pip.

I forgot to do a post at my 16 week mark so I’ll update you on everything that’s been happening since my 12 week post.

Morning sickness has gone, yay! I stopped feeling ill around the 13 week mark which was such a relief as I hated feeling sick all the time. My appetite has now returned and although I’m still eating smaller portions I’m actually eating so that’s a bonus.

I had my 16 week midwife appointment and heard baby’s heartbeat. Apparently the rules have changed since last time and they don’t usually listen for it until after 22 weeks but she had a go and found it straight away. All my tests came back clear which was a relief and I’m now seeing her again at 28 weeks.

I’ve started feeling movements! I felt the very first bubbles at 15 weeks this time which is a lot earlier than with Ethan. The first kicks were at 16 weeks but I had to be laid dead still to feel those and at 17 weeks I felt them whilst I was on the move. At 20 weeks I’ve begun to see the movements through my tummy and my lovely hubby can feel them now too!


I had my 20 week scan and remained team yellow. So when this baby comes it will be a complete surprise! The scan went really well, baby is growing really well and everything is as it should be. We got to see baby in great detail, all fingers and toes, baby was even sucking its fingers at one point.

I had my first glucose tolerance test as well, I have to have another one in a few weeks. I’m currently waiting on my results to see if I have  gestational diabetes.

I’m still feeling tired and I have up and down days. I’m super emotional all the time and I’m crying at the most superficial things like foods and if I can’t get comfy, can you believe it! Pregnancy hormones are delightful!

Anyway that’s about it for 20 weeks, I’m updating across on my YouTube channel and my Instagram too which are linked below if you want to check them out.

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Feeling run down


So let’s face it growing a human is hard, no matter how much we sugar coat it we all have bad days. My bad day has been a bad week. I know in a few weeks when I get that pregnancy glow (does anyone else think of the film ‘What to expect when you’re expecting’ when they hear those two words) I’ll look back and think what a crazy hormonal pregnant mess I was but right now I feel rubbish!

I’ve felt incredibly run down, you know that feeling you get just before you get a cold, and I’ve been feeling blue. Now I know this is totally normal, I remember when I got it in my first pregnancy and I was stood in the middle of Tesco crying because I didn’t know what I wanted for my dinner. This is how I’ve been, I’ve cried a lot this week and I’ve had little to no energy to do anything.

I think my job is getting tough now, the work I do is still quite easy but the 4am alarms are killing me. I’m struggling to sleep so team that with a toddler who likes to get up to ask for more sleep (why not just stay in bed) and a very early alarm I’m pretty much a walking zombie.

People say I’m looking great (well at least a lot better than the morning sickness phase) but inside I’m not. This is the part of pregnancy I tried to forget last time and I can’t wait for it to pass this time. 

My Midwife is keeping a close eye on my iron levels as last time I had anemia so there’s every chance I’ll have it again last time but so far my levels are good. 

So I guess for now I just have to wait for it to pass. I’m finding pregnancy a lot different this time, I don’t know if it’s harder because I was working full time last time and struggled wit my anemia, but it’s certainly getting hard.

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